Thursday, August 31, 2006
-Messages-
To: Dearest
Sry....
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To: Dearie
I dunno wad to sae....
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To: Shu hua
Thankz for asking how am i...
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To: Xian Hao
Take care...
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To: Yee Woen
Exam over le...Now euu can relax abit liao...
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To: Auntie
Need to take care...
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To: Keith
Thankz for chatting with me in MSN ystd...
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To: Andrew kor
Thankz for wrying abt me...
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To: Joseph kor
Thankz for loving me...
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To: Edgar
Thankz for borrowing me ur digital cam...
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To: Evil ppl
You all suck...
confessed @ 3:15 PM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Hmm....the time now is 12.26pm arh...still feeling quite tired...And today i din went to work...Coz my back suddenly pain like wad lor....Yupp....Really pain lor....It suddenly pain de...SO i oso dunno y lah....Haiz....Today abit wrong start lor...Wake up with a back pain....Den lappy the bluetooth spoil...I can't on it...Which means i can't send pict from my HP to my lappy le...Sad lor....Stupid lappy...Everytime got probs de lor....I oso dunno why tis time the stupid thingy can't on lah....Shud be the button lose le bah...They shud haf deivce to on the bluetooth other than the button lor....Sad lah....No mood to blog....shud end here...
confessed @ 12:30 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Hmmm....BAck and arm still pain...But here i am writting msg for certain ppl....Yupp...Feeling so sad now bah...Thankz to someone de blog....Yar lor.....I really dun like the feelings of being doubted.....Especially when it come to the area of love....The song 'Dan Ni Gu Dan NiHui Xiang Qi Zui' arh...I answer is Dearie....Today got search search present for dearie... Bt i still can't find....Bt when came home saw dearie's blog and i am doubted....I dunno how to present myself le...Tis is me...The most sincere me....But if i can't get ur trust arh, i oso dunno le bah...
Enuff of saying all tis le bah....Hmm....Auntie i noe tat euu will get to read my blog de oso arh, so i will write msg for euu de as well....Yar lor....Recently blog is stuffed with sad stuff....Happy stuff all gone le...All these started after i like both dearie and dearest....And when i love Dearie le, its even worst...But i expect all these le bah....Yupp.....Can anyone tell me how can i show someone tat i truely love this person??
**Messages**
To: Yee Woen and Lulu
Hmm....as i mention in my blog arh, i shud be okie soon de bah...So euu all dun haf to feel bad de....Yar lor...No matter wad, i got a choice to go or not to mah....In the end i choose to go....So not ni men de fault mah....Yupp....Hmm....Really see euu all soon kz??Take care and rest well....Think euu all shud haf a great dream when euu all slp tonite bah....=)
To:Auntie
Hmm....I noe euu really can get ur way to see our blog de arh...Yar lor...Hmm... Thou' always i tell euu i am okie arh, seriously i am not....But i juz can't let euu wry...So i got to stay strong infront of euu arh...I dun even noe how long can i hold on to it le....Auntie, i very soon will break down le lor.....Auntie, euu really muz eat leh...Cannot dun eat de....Adn mz rest well yar...Cannot keep saying haven't die and wadsoever de kz?? Yar lor....Muz take care ya...euu still got us....
To: Dearest
Hmm...Thankz for listening to my rubbish almost these few nites....xie xie....Study muz jia you kz....From today onwards euu are free to do wadever euu wan le....
To: Dearie
Hmm..Saw ur blog arh, den really really feel so sad...Ur blog left me speechless....Ur blog left me with sadness...I dunno hwo to react to ur blog....Hmm...But actually since start i din expect anything as well bah...Yar lor....But i din expect euu to doubt my love as well arh....In ur blog euu sae "'N' cnt feel ani love frm 'A' cos 'A' merely said dat he loves 'N' bt he din prove to 'N' wit his actns at all.." Yupp, for tat i agree....Coz i dunno how to show action....And euu got like ppl arh, so how euu wan me to show??I dun wan to add on to ur probs.....Euu oso sae tat "'N' feels dat maybe 'A' has mixed up the definitions of both love and like lerhs.." hmm...for tis arh, i noe wad is love and wad is like...But maybe juz different form the view of euu all bah...Yupp....Anyway, i did alot of thinking b4 i sae i love euu....Yupp...Last of all, euu sae tat "'A' tinks dat he loves 'N' bt maybe all along it ish just pitiness which 'A' has fer 'N' bahs.." I can tell euu ur tis sentence is not true at all...i din pity euu b4....Maybe to euu all these is my excuses bah....I dunno wad to sae if euu really like tat think le...yar lor...Maybe compared to ur JL and JC, i can't be trusted bah...I sae maybe hor....Yupp....I dunno lah...Juz feeling very very sad after reading wad euu wrote bah....
confessed @ 12:42 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Hmm...Juz hear tis song suppose to be by Kenny G and dunno who lah....The title is ~EnDlEsS LoVe~ Its really very nice lor....Den whole song i like tis phrase..."I will be the fool for euu..." Yupp....Maybe when euu really love tat person arh, tis will be the thing tat euu will do bah.... Yupp....You will be the fool for the person euu really love...Yupp....Hmm...Here to write msg le wor...yupp....
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~Messages~
.To: Yee Woen
Hmm...finally all things is cleared....Yupp....Anyway, i not angy or wad lah...yar lor..But wadever izzit arh, we cleared the misunderstanding le....Haha....See ya tml wor.....
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To: Dearest
Hmm....In the end i still get to read ur blog...Thankz for being so harsh arh....Yar...Anyway, still sry tat i hurt euu without knowing it....Take care ya....
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To: Dearie
Misses euu lots...But euu always so busy de....HAha...Eeu being going out almost everyday since euu finish ur exam le...Which is a gud thing lah....Enjoy urself ya....Hmm...i think euu will de lah..Yar lor....Take care....Many things feel like telling euu bt i think i will not sae le....I rather keep it in me....yupp....
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To: Xian Hao & Shu Hua
Hmm...Wondering how euu guys are lah....Hmm...Hope euu all doing well arh.....Enjoy ur holidays....hehe....Cheers..Miss euu guys....But i miss SOMEONE more....LoLz....Anyway, i am okie bah...so dun wry.....
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To : Shi yun
Hmm....Sry tat ystd din acc euu....yar...Take care and enjoy ur holidays yar....
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To: Auntie
I am really wry abt euu....I wan help euu bt Auntie i really dunno how leh...I feel so useless...Sry tat i only can listen to euu....Auntie euu muz really take care hao bu hao....yar lor....
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~Feelings~
Love: I dunno....But there's someone on mind...But dunno izzit love anot...
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Like: Dearie, Dearest
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Crush: Nope~
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Missing: Dearie...
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Thinking: Dearie, E*I***, Dearest
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~Lyrics~
蝴蝶
(o.s:如果蝴蝶会唱歌
那会是悲伤的吗
如果晚上想念你
你会听见吗
我看见你微笑的脸
只是有一点模糊
可能是眼泪吧)
你象蝴蝶飞离我的世界
我看不见你美丽的脸
眼泪流成河你还是学不会不会飞
你象蝴蝶采回我的时间
当我学会感动和感谢
我不停唱你还是听不见
听不见
我想说的话
你再也无法笑着回答
你现在的另一个家
有没有会唱歌的月光
是不是下雪会出太阳
会不会你还是想家
我在这里
还陪着你呼吸
我看着你
以为只是去散心
confessed @ 9:41 PM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Hmm...Here to write msg le bah....Like a few days nv write msg le bah...So finally here to write le lor....YAr....Feeling not so gud now lah...I dunno oso lah...Yar lor....Den oso noe tat some ppl no longer can be trusted le...Ppl usually find reason to defend themself and it is normal ppl reaction lor...yar...SO here the msg goes.....
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To: Yee Woen
Hmm...juz to clarified lah...I am not busy with my dearie and dearest stuff arh..I am busy in sch thingy lor....yar...Yesterday one event juz ended.....Den after tat i monday to friday all need to work...Den after tat arh, i planning a thingy for my ITE teacher together with my ITE friends for tis comng tuesday lor....So can euu plz plz plz dun sae tat i got no time for euu ppl?? Coz seriously, dearie and dearest dun haf it as well arh....My time now most of it is taken by my shcool and work le....Yar lor....Gud luck for ur exam and take care ya....
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To: Lucinda
Hmm...Really thankz for the msg in ur blog ya...And as i sae arh, i will try my best to stay cheerful de kz....Sry tat the alvin euu ppl once noe is currently not ard....Yup....And congrats tat ur holiday is here wor...Haha...Enjoy it yar...
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To: Dearie
Hmm....I dunno wad to sae bah....Yar....Dunno y the feeling for euu growing stronger....And the more it grow, the more scare i am....Yar lor....Hmm....Dearie, muz really grab hold of the thing tat euu like or love b4 the thing is gone lor....Dun lost it le den regret kz?? Yar...Ur exam finish le..So euu can relax le lor...Yar..Haf fun during ur holidays kz?? Yar...See ya soon.....Oh ya...Try to get more rest hor....
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To: Dearest
Hmm....euu wan do wad from now on i dun care le bah...Since euu dun let me see ur blog le so be it lor...IF euu believe tat person once again den be it lor...And dun bluff urself bah, euu still love tat person de lor....If euu get hurt i oso dunno le lah....WO BU GUAN le...Euu take care bah....Yar...Thankz for the testimonial ya....
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To:Desmond
Hmm...complaint sae i nv write anything for euu le wor...So it is lor....Hmm...Read ur blog euu like sad sad de...Bt when ask euu euu sae euu okie...I oso dunno leh...am i thinking too much or wad leh??Confused...Anyway, my power is so limited now...Its all drained le...Getting so tired helping ppl liao....bt tats me arh....so yar lor....help ppl still kena scold....haha...so stupid of me rite??
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Hmm.....I now keep thinking of a phrase lah...."喜欢的越深, 痛的越深"...Hmm...How to control my own feelings leh?? i oso dunno le lah...YAr lor....If one day i met with a accident and forget tis whole part of things which happen from 280305 till now de wun it be so gud....How i hope i can start with a new life and not these painful one lor....Thou' this painful life got mixture of happiness as well lah..But it is more to the painful part bah...yar lor....
confessed @ 12:47 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
-真实-
你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真
太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子
confessed @ 10:36 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
The time now is 9.47pm…Still on bus 8 going home…Yupp..Today pass my 4 friends their thingy le..And some of them are touched..Some of them sae nth….But juz hopefully tat they appreciated the thing I gave them lor…Yar…Yar…Today is the last day in class le…At the end of the class arh, we took photos together…So now will wait Sherwin and yanah to upload den I will take from them lor…Den oso got a video lah..Tat wan need to take from xian hao…After school meet dearest at abt 4 plus lor..Den we took bus 960 to marina square..Den eat LJS…Den go esplanade de roof top den take bus to bishan den go home le lor…Finally explain to dearest everything le…
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Now at ubi le wor..Shud be reaching home at abt 30mins time bah..Roughly lor…Den go home bathe le den shud be waiting for kor kor to finish using the comp den I online do my stuff bah…Yar lor…Still got to submit my last RJ…Yar lor…So abt all le bah…Den tml 9am meeting Sherwin at library there lah..Coz need to reach school at 10am for a dry run of Friday event lor…Friday event is at 5pm to 9pm lah..Den need to reach at 4.30pm…Den I need to work from 9am to 2pm lor…So dun think will be able to eat bah..Coz got to rush for time…Hmm..Tats all lor…Below will be msg le…
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To: Dearie and Dearest
Hmm…In life arh, many ppl will come and go in and out of ur life arh, but I hope tat now as a friend euu all came into my life rite and euu all wun go out…Yupp…I truly enjoy to haf euu all as my friends…I haf bad experience of friends tat I used to haf le…I dun need another one lor…Yupp…
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To: Dearest
Hmm..finally get to tok things out with euu le…Euu oso not angry or sad or disappointed le…As I sae I really really sry yar….But remember bah, once my dearest always my dearest unless euu are those dunnop how to sae de ppl hor, Den I will not wan euu as my dearest…Yar….Anyway, now I oso wun control euu to do wad le..As euu sae mah, euu do things which euu happy can le…Yar lor…So see euu are happy can le…Yupp…Euu dun haf to wry abt myself lor…Anyway, as I tell euu today…I am childish I admit it arh, if ppl accept it den accept it. If they dun, den forget it lor…Yar lor, no point having friends tat can’t accept me….Hehe..Really sry for all those thingy tat happened….
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To: Dearie
Hmm…your exam is finally coming to an end le..After tat muz rest well le wor…Coz euu haf lost many slp due to ur exam le…So muz muz muz muz muz rest well after ur exam kz??Gud tat I see euu happier now le…YAr…Hope euu not act out de lor…Yar….Hope tat euu are truly happy…And arh, ystd euu really did make me wry lor….haha…I missing auntie de curry fish head…Haha…But if the nxt time got rite, it will be ur turn to eat le…Haha…Or we can eat together lor….haha….I am not tat evil lor…Hehe…See euu soon wor~!!!
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To: Xian Hao, Lareina, Shi Yun and Shu Hua
Hmm…Gonna miss euu guyz…Euu ppl rawkz my world lor….Lets hope some of us mine end up in the same class hor, thou its like super slim chance…Yar….Take care…Hope euu guys like wad I did for euu all kz??hehe….
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To: ALL ppl who dun like my blog or me
Hey hey..Here to leave a msg for euu all lor…Yar…If euu all dun like me or dun believe wad I wrote in my blog rite, euu all can dun read or dun even need to come into my blog and find trouble by tagging de arh…Since euu all dun like me or dun believe wad I write hor, for wad still come in and see leh?? So free go find smth else to do lah…Dun haf to come into my blog and find trouble de…Yar..I got my limit de kz…Some of euu I noe who euu all are lor…So stop making a fool out of urself kz?? Even wan scold me hor, scold using ur real name lah..Dun humji lor….Not referring to anyone lah…But if euu all thing I referring to anyone rite, den euu all shud be guilty lor…Yar…So plz save urself some face and wadsoever kz?? Take care ya…
confessed @ 2:49 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Hmm....Recently dun haf a clear mind....I really dunno wad i wan and i dunno wad am i thinking...Sry tats tis few days i get ppl pissed off...I get ppl upset...Really Really Really sry...Maybe tis Alvin can't bring ppl happiness bah....Maybe its better tat tis Alvin is gone for the good bah....Really really dunno....Haiz....All the unknow feelings is back....Hate it lotz..... Today i am too tired tat i nv go to school....But later i will be going arh, coz got meeting at 5pm....Yar...Finally get back my slp....But still not enuff....I still very tired....
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Hmm....Here to write a few msges to ppl bah...Yar...Here its goes....
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To: Dearest
Hmmm....Saw ur blog and tag le....Seriously speaking, i am disappointed with euu ystd....Not bcoz i dun trust euu or wad...Its juz tat i dunno y euu give tat person a chance to hurt euu lor.... I noe no matter wad i sae euu wun listen de....Euu sae b4 mah, once ur baobei and forever it will be....Euu noe mah, i juz dun wan euu to get hurt by tat person...Tat person is too clever tat can't be under estimate le...See euu ystd saw once den euu already sae ur baobei tat euu once noe is back all tat stuff....But did euu noe wad ur baobei did at home?? Did euu noe the way ur baobei tok to us?? I dunno wad i can sae to bring euu back to sense lor...Maybe our thinking are different bah...Euu still got hope for ur baobei but i dun...Over tis period, all hope is lost...The last bit is gone ystd morning...I aksed auntie to hold on to tat person coz inthe morning i can see tat tat person still got abit hope....But knowing wad tat person do at home arh, its all gone... To me now, i juz hope to help auntie in wadever way i can...Helping auntie to share her burden....Tok to auntie when she needed someone to...Euu noe tat even thou' i sae i dun care abt tat person but i still care for tat person de...But i really dunno...Feeling so dunno wad to do bcoz of tat person....Any arh, i am nt agonising in between of euu and dearie... Its juz tat i really dunno wad i wan now...The main thing which is agonising me now is tat whenever i care for tat person, i juz haf a super stupid feeling...I noe i haf admitted to euu tat i like dearie more...But does tat mean tat dearie muz like me as well?? And does tat mean i dun like euu?? I noe euu haf did alot of things for me juz to make me happy...And ystd thingy is not i dun trust euu...but i really dun trust tat person lor....Euu had a place in my heart le...I dun wan euu to get hurt...I am sry tat i hurt euu again and again with my words...But i really not in a clear mine lor dearest...Ystd i really only slp like 3hrs..I really really very tired le...I easily get pissed off or angry...Dearest, i noe euu already noe my character le...Yar....but no matter wad, euu still my dearest....Dearest, euu seriously is the one tat currently influence my feeling the most...seeing euu sad i am sad...seeing euu happy i am happy....Received ur sms i am happy...nv received it i will miss it....
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To: Dearie
Hmm.....yupp....finally got a taste of eating the fish head all alone....Its so so so full lor....But i still dun think euu evil lah....Wad tat person sae abt euu arh is juz wad tat person think....Not me...Coz tat person usually after breakoff with ppl le tat person will sae the other person how bad how bad de...Den no gud point de....If i believe wad tat person sae rite, then i am the one tat is really Superficial lor....yar....But i dun wan to be superficial...I juz learn a lesson...And i going to apply it from today onwards le....I dun wan to be influenced by anyone abt a person...I will judge it by myself now...Yar lor....Its the best way lor....And at least euu wun straight away assume tat person to be like tis or like tat lor....So tis is wad i going to do...Ystd asked euu one question...And i think i am "zhi zu" le...Yar lor...At least euu trusted me and treat me as a true friend now...Yar lor....Whether i am trustable arh, i let euu judge urself lor...I dun wan to sae whether i am or whether i'm not..only euu ppl noe it more than i do....So if euu ppl think i am den i am..IF euu ppl think i not den i am not lor...My character can be seen easily so yar lor....Ppl who noe me for awhile can noe wad type of person i am le....Yupp....So if euu wan euu can tok to me more and euu will noe le....Ystd really happy to haf time with euu only lah...to noe euu slightly better....thou' euu still din sae much abt urself lor....but to me arh, currently still not bad lor...As uncle and auntie oso like tat sae arh.....yupp...Older ppl judge ppl sometime is more accurate de....Anyway, i dunno y bah...see euu hor, getting ur sms hor or chat with euu in MSN arh, i really very happy lor....Den we now got common goals...Which is to help "mummy" as many as we would...Be there when she needed...Haha....Y i put 'mummy'?? coz tat person sae de mah...lolz....Muz eat more hor....haha....
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To: Auntie
Ystd see euu so pale hor juz like how dearie feel arh, i am heart broken lor....But i trid my best to use a joking way to make euu rest more all tat....Coz i noe euu very sad le...So i cannot use those sad sad tone to ask euu rest more....I wan to cheer euu up....Auntie, really thank eu for doing so many things for us...As wad dearie had sae bah....Euu all not very rich oso arh....So shud keep the money for urself lor...yar...Or wad dearie sae, give it to tat person lor...b4 tat person complaint no money...We seriously haf enuff to spend lah..So auntie dun haf to wry abt us kz?? yar lor.....Euu really muz rest well lah...muz slp more....Sry ystd me and dearie did a stupid thing...But as i tell euu arh, we juz wan euu and uncle and the three bros to rets more....yar...sry auntie....
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To: Xian Hao
Sry tat ystd i sae so many things to euu ystd...Wad wadever i sae rite, i dun mean it de....hope euu wun put it in heart kz?? yar....sry sry sry.....
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To: Yee woen
Hope tat euu feeling better le wor...YAr...Muz take care ya...see euu soon....=)
confessed @ 10:40 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Hmm....Ystd slept at 3 plus den woke up at 9 plus....Hehe....Den online at 10 plus....Now sper bored lor....Nth to do...Den juz now dig ear until bleed....Sad case....So careless of me rite??haha....Anyway, as usual lah..Tis blog is put msg de....So yar lor...Will be writing msg here....Hehe.....To: Yee WoenYoz...Today is ur 2o da shou leh....Happy b'day wor..Forget the past and move on lor...Hehe....All the unhappy thing juz let it pass bah..Its difficult but lets work hard together kz?? hehe....YAr lor...Hmm...Ystd hope euu enjoy urself kz?? hmm....Take care arh~~~HaPpY BiRtHdAy...(^.^).To:DearieHmm....ystd euu sae euu get hurt by someone arh, den i was rather heart pain lor....Yar lor...Den arh, hope euu feeling better now le...Anyway, no one in tis world is deserving to get hurt de lor...No one....Even if there is rite, its shud be ppl who are bad kz?? So dun sae euu deserve to get hurt kz?? Coz euu are not....Yar lor....Anyway, really thankz for pei-ing me chat chat when i walk home ystd kz?? Thankz hor....Dearie muz really take care and be happy kz?? yup.....To: DearestHmm..hope ur finger is feeling better le...Nxt time muz becareful while euu work kz?? Yar...Anyway, i really touched of wad euu willin to do for me juz to get me to cheer up...Xie Xie Ni~!!Anyway, hope euu enjoy ur time with ur B***....hehe....take care hor....(^.^).Msges shud be tats all le....Hmm...long time nv write in my feelings le coz its all in a mess lah...yar lor...Bt at least now better le bah....yar lor....So i shell put it in le....Love: No One~.Like: Dearie, Dearest, 040206 tat person (according to ranking).Crash: No one~.Missing: Dearie, Dearest, the smile of y*g*.Wishing: The return of the person i once noe on 040206...Not retunr to me..but everyone....
confessed @ 1:20 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Hmm....ystd din write anything here arh, so here i am to write msg le...LoLz....So here its goes.....To: Yee WoenHmm...ur b'day celebration finally is settled....hehe...Althou' its abit slow rite, but at least i still make outthe plan....Sry tat it is plan so slow leh...Hope euu will enjoy urself today hor....Hope euu wun be angry with my caring character....Tml is ur birthday so hereby wish euu a happy earlt birthday first....lolz...=).To: DearieHmm....First of all arh, here to apologize for making euu eat the whole fish head alone lah...As i explain le, my gastric not gud ystd....So i tried to avoid spicy food....Sry sry sry....Ystd really very very very happy to see euu leh...Dunno y...Juz so happy correct le...Tat y euu can see wad dearest write in the blog for me...But hor, i think dearest thinking abit too much le...I explain so many time le...LoLz...But dun think too much abt that person de thingy le...Some things are beyond the limit tat we can help...I oso feel like helping tat person...But i dunno how...I juz feel so wad bah...Yar lor...Thou' i sae i dun care abt tat person de thingy le but ystd when auntie talk abt the person arh, i can't help of feeling sad and diasppointed...Coz deep in me i still care for tat person...Dearie~!!! i juz hope euu will be happy and find the person euu love and love euu de person soon...Yupp...Someone who will bring euu happiness only instead of sollow...yar lor... But i realise tat i haf like euu more.....To: DearestHmm...Dearest, i really dunno wad to sae abt euu le...Ystd saw ur hand i was really sad and angry lor...Juz wad euu wan me to do den can stop euu from doing all is stupid stuff leh?? And if really feel like seeing tat person euu can go de...But euu muz noe the time lor....Ystd not i dun wan euu to go...But its rather late lor...I dun wan euu to be like tat person lor....And from ur blog euu tell me tat euu can see that i like dearie alot and ask me go jio dearie...But arh, i oso tell euu tat i dun even noe wad i wan now mah....I admit i like dearie SLIGHTLY more than euu....But i really dunno arh...Dearie might have ppl tat dearie like le...yar lor....And i really scare of relationship oso arh...YAr lor...I need time to adjust back everything bah...I really dun like when euu keep changing ur attitude towards me...And keep suaning me lor...haiz...Dearest, can tell me wad i can do to make euu dun so sad..Wad i can do to make euu dun like tat leh?? But dearest, i will remember the one promise i owe euu de......To: AuntieAuntie, thankz for the dinner and the Hi! card leh...Yupp....Euu muz really rest well lor...We undertsand tat euu are really very xin ku now arh..Tats y we want to help euu...But we dunno how can we help euu...But auntie, when euu got anything rite, euu can always find either of us de...Coz we will be there for euu de...Yupp....Nxt time if euu haf rice no ppl eat hor, can oso ask us to go over de...We help euu clear...Hehe...Really thankz so much auntie......To: The person tat asked me to STFUI deeply hope tat euu dun go any deeper le...Hope euu noe how ur friends and family who cares for euu feel....
confessed @ 10:27 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Today abit shut myself down lor…Nv tok to anyone in class….Juz now took bus to school I listen to my MP3 and feeling sad..I got to keep closing my eyes coz tears flooding…If I open, my tears will drop…Hence I keep it close…Hmm..Nvm…I now will write msges le….
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To: Dearie
Hmm…Jzu now gone thru’ ur blog and I noe wad haf happen le….Hope euu feeling better now and dun be pissed le…Euu scold the wind oso no use arh, it is nature leh….Den hor, usually ppl who dunno euu den will doubt euu or suspect euu or blame euu for something bah…Yar…Ppl who noe euu rite, they noe ur character and patterns hence they wun think euu are like tat or wad de lor….Dearie, I really dunno y I will miss euu so much…Maybe I already bu zhi bu jue de xi huan ni le bah….Yar….Den arh, I noe euu might already haf someone else on ur mind le arh and I oso noe we are impossible de so I will control my feelings de…Yupp…But no matter wad, I still will care and show concern for euu de…Will be by ur side when euu needed de….Yupp…So dearie muz take care kz?? Everytime see ur blog arh, see euu slp late late hor, my heart will juz suddenly feel pain…Juz like wad I had when tat person I noe on 040206 din slp early de feelings….Dearie, plz try to get more rest oso kz?? Yupp… Dearie, I really miss euu~~
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To: Dearest
Hmm…I dunno why but juz feel so hurt by ur words…Thou’ euu already explain it thru’ sms le but I really dun like the tone of ur sms now…I feel that I haf lost the dearest which I declare on 150806 10.13pm le…Can euu plz return me tat dearest…I really really dunno wad to do lor…Euu sae euu like me, and I did admit I like euu too….But arh, when euu sae euu started to love me, I abit scare….Not tat I dun believe euu or wun love euu…Its bcoz wad me and my friend think is that its bcoz when euu needed someone den I was there tats y euu fall for me…But it might be juz a very strong feelings of crush…Not that I think tat euu will hurt me or wad…But I juz very very scare…I was hurt three time….I dun wan to get hurt anymore…As I sae, I like euu…But I care and concern for euu without thinking of any returns…I nv sae its impossible between us…frm then till now rite, only euu saying nia…not me…Dearest, can euu plz plz plz dun think so much kz??I juz really dun like the tone euu use in sms now lor…Not tat I wan to sae tat euu no longer my dearest….But maybe as wad euu sae bah, I not used to the tone euu using now…Yar…I really hope to haf the dearest which I noe b4 ystd nite lor…At least the words dearest use is not hurting at all….Ur promotional exam coming le…As euu sae euu are not doing well…So I hope euu can study first…the rest we will tok abt it after tat kz??
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To: Yee woen
Hmm…ur celebration is currently being set on 19 aug 2006…Further detail will be release to euu all….Coz I need to pei he everyone’s time…Yar..latest I will inform euu all with the details by tml….=)
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To: Shi Yun
Hmm…Sometime euu got to control ur behavior in class bah..Especially the way euu tok to the faci…Even thou’ we treat them as friend arh but no matter wad they are still older than us and is consider as our teacher…Hence euu still got to show them some respect…In addition, euu a gal lor…Althou’ it can be funny arh, but euu shud not always “burp” in class and its so loud lor…Euu juz got to try to control lor….Yar…As a friend I can only advice euu tis….
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To: 040206
Maybe now I am juz a passer-by friend to euu bah…But I dunno why yesterday wr she ther I eventually calling out ur name…Asking for ur return…Yupp…Ur close friends, ppl tat care for euu, ur mummy all try to help euu to change…They tell euu ur weakness and hope euu can improve.But wad euu write in ur blog “friend will try to tolerate ur weakness. good friend will tell you ur weakness but best friend will tell you ur weakness and work to improve it with you.” Ur close friends and parents all tried to work if euu to improve…But when ur friends and mum tell euu rite, how euu treated them lor?? You juz get pissed off and ignore them…So I oso dunno wad euu really wan lor…But all of us will wait for the return of euu….
confessed @ 10:19 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Messages to people….
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To: Nick
Hmm….Once again here to nag nag le wor….Muz really remember wad euu promise me ystd nite kz?? Cannot hide everything to urself de….Den oso cannot sad sad le….I noe it tough to not to be sad deep in ur heart, but euu muz try kz?? I will be there for euu de…Anyone bully euu muz tell me kz?? I wun let ppl bully euu and hurt euu again le….So yar lor…Study hard hard first kz?? Study is more impt….Dun think about all the sad sad stuff le….okie?? Anyway, I dun mind being sad juz to help euu all lor…Coz tats me….Thankz for thinking tat I am gud…Thankz for ur care and concern…Thankz for appreciating my care and concern for euu…=) Muz walk out from the past kz??
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To: Zick
Hmm….nice toking to euu…And hope euu really okie now….Same with nick, euu promise euu wun sad sad le…Euu oso hooked finger with me le….So if euu break ur promise arh, I wrack euu kz??Yar…When euu think of sad sad stuff arh, can euu think of me instead of those stuff?? Lolz…. Yar…Anyway, oso thankz for giving me morning call ts morning wor…Appreciated….Thankz for saying I got gud look and beautiful heart…Thankz for appreciating my care and concern for euu…Thankz for encouraging me…Thankz for thinking I am gud…Thankz for worrying abt me…Thankz for wanting me to be happy….I promise euu I wun be sad oso de…I wan euu and nick to b happy how can I be sad leh??hehe…Muz take care kz??Same thing as I sae to nick, I wun allow ppl to bully euu or hurt euu de…=)
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To: Auntie
Dunno will euu get to read anot lah..But arh, auntie I really really really appreciate ur care a lot…Same as nick, am really touched by ur smses…Same with nick oso, euu let me feel wad I sort of missing it…Which is a mother who care for me….Seriously auntie, euu noe more things abt me compared to my mum….At least euu noe wad I like and wad I wan…Thank euu auntie….Euu really a very gud mum… =)
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To: Yee Woen
Hey hey, ur b’day coming le…In process of planning for euu liao….But juz haven’t decide on the day….But most prob is on the 19 lor….Programme will be planned soon….Meanwhile, keep me update abt the pinic thingy bah….=) Let me noe asap kz?? Cannot last minute kz…=) .
To: Darren Daddy
Plz trust me kz…I wun let ppl make use of me le…And arh, there’s some character in me which I dun wanna change….Coz if I change le rite, it wun be me le…. Yar..So daddy, I rather tat I keep my original self and try to be strong….=)
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To: Shi yun
Sry tat euu today sad sad I dunno how to help euu le….i only can give euu two pat on ur head to console euu….dun think so much le kz?? Quarrel always occur de…dun sad le….Muz take care kz??
confessed @ 3:03 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack.
How are you feeling today?
Goodbye yesterday - Zhang Xing Zhe
(Hmm...forgeting the past?Thinking of the past??)
Will you get far in life?
Zhou Bian- Yang Chen Lin
(Not relevant leh...)
How do your friends see you?
You are my only Love- Cyndi Wang
(My friend love me??)
Will you get married?
Ji De Wo Ai Ni- Guan Liang
(Shud be bah...got ppl love me??)
What is your best friend's theme song?
Thru' the rain- carrie underwood and AMI season 5
(Yup...we will go thru' the rain)
What is the story of your life?
Ren Yu De Yan Lei- Nan Quan MaMa
(Sad Sad song..OMG~!!)
What was high school like?
Don't sae goodbye- Hong Jun YAng
(Missing it??)
How can you get ahead in life?
Fairytales- Jojo
(being naive??)
What is the best thing about your friends?
Qian Nian Lei- Tank
(i dunno~!!)
What is in store for this weekend?
Jiu Shou Xi de mo sheng ren- Elva
(Yupp...A stranger which i noe well appeared...)
What song describes you?
A whole new world- alladin
(a whole new world for me??)
To describe your grandparents?
wasted- carrie underwood
(watsed tat they are naggy??)
How is your life going?
Di Er Ge Pa Pa- Nan Quan ma ma(No way man....)
What song will they play at your funeral?
if i ain't got you- alicia key
(Nice song...Thankz for for remember me...)
How does the world see you?
Ring ring ring- S.H.E(Outgoing??Talkaive??)
Will you have a happy life?
Ren Zhi- Zang Hui MEi(Sad song = sad life??)
What do your friends really think of you?
baby, dui bu qi- Coco lee
(they feel sry for me??)
Do people secretly lust after you?
Lao Shu ai da mi- Twins
(wad is lust??)
How can I make myself happy?
Where do broken hearts go(find somewhere to fix my heart?? true...)
What should you do with your life?
Before your love- Kelly clarkson(Love someone??)
Will you ever have children?
Yong Gan- Zhang hui mei(Yes..If i'm brave enuff??)
And now, to who I shall tag will be listed below. (10 people) Must it be someone with a blog or something? I don't care. Those who are tagged must do it, as long as you have an MP3 player or whatsoever. Write it on a piece of paper (and let me know your answer to these questions).
1. Nick
2. Xain Hao
3. Yee Woen
4. Lucinda
5. Andrew
6. Michelle
7. Shu Hua
8. Shi yun
9. Zick
10. Andon
confessed @ 7:43 PM
Now is 9.44am....Today lesson will end very early....Coz presentation will be at 1pm...So by 2pm shud be finish le....Yar lor....Sianz....I dun wan to go home so early....Where can i go?? Who can i find?? I dunno wad i doing....I now been thinking of ppl tat i shudn't...I oso dunno y am i thinking of these few person lor...Y will i think of them leh?? Haiz....Sad Sad....Anyway, yee woen thankz for replying to my ystd nite de sms.....Althou' it after i post the entry on the other blog....But nvm...At least i put it here le....Xie Xie ni.....Hmm....No mood to do anything now lor....Can someone be there for me now??
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Hmm...here will be writting messages for ppl.....
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To: Xian Hao...
Thankz for asking how am i when i came to school...I noe euu sense something wrong with me today..In fact i am....But dun wry....
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To: Yee Woen...
Thankz for ur reply wor...Appreciated....Thankz for saying me as a great friend....Thankz for being my Shou Hu Xing...Thankz for willingly being there for me when i needed...Xie Xie....No words can describe how much i appreciated...
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To: Yoga...
Thankz for ur smile....
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To: Passer-by..
Thou' i dunno who euu are but still thankz for tagging and ur concern....
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To: Lucinda and family...
Dunno y suddenly missing euu guys when i typing tis msg....
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To: Michelle...
Dun tire urself up bcoz of work....
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To: Auntie..
Euu are really a great mum....Muz rest well and take care kz??
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To: Nick...
Hope euu will keep ur promise....Thou' i dunno euu well yet....Anwyay, my friend wan to noe euu....Remember 130806 8.17pm euu are declare shuai and cute by me....lolz...Take care kz??
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To: Tino...
Maybe i usually visit euu at the wrong time bah....Yupp...Take care....
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To: Desmond...
Take Care and thankz for reading my blog and thankz for ur concern...
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To: Andrew kor...
Thankz for ur sms....
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To: 'Uncle' Andrew...
Take care of ur stomach....See euu soon for my cap...hehe.....
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To: Alan...
Thankz for scolding tat person who tagged me....Euu muz stay happy kz??
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To: Jason...
Take care and gud luck for ur paper...
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背对着我你挥挥手
千言万语想挽留
怎么也说不出口
站在雨中哭了好久
期待着你会回头
多希望时光倒流
为什么让我一个人承担
两个人的错
为什么你不在乎我的感受
为什么要我孤单的面对
所有的折磨
为什么问也不问我
就决定要分手
我不想让你走
心在痛泪在流
你那么绝情那么忍心
忘记你的承诺
我不想让你走
心在痛泪在流
曾经相爱过曾经执着
如今都随风
什么都没有
confessed @ 9:48 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Hmm..the time now is 11.19am....Today woke up at abt 10am...Den wash my face le den watch TV...Den bathe...Den here i am infront of my lappy again le...Yar lor...Hmm..Feeling abit sad and abit tired now....Yupp....Hmm...tok abt ystd first bah....Hmm...at first suppose to go to sch by 9am de...Coz got workshop mah....But in the end i over slept....So din go...Coz i really to tired le....Slp at 2am lor....Okie lah, i admit my fault....Coz reach home at 12 plus bt dun slp....Online until 2am den slp....Sry sry...Anyway, woke up ard 10 plus bah....Den online lor.....Den until 12 plus auntie called me lor....Den she ask me if i am free and am i going out den i tell her le den she tell me smth lah...Den i go over to KK lor...Even thou' no money take MRT arh, i still took MRT to bugis den changed bus to KK lor....Yupp...DEn after everything arh, i go off to meet yee woen and her friend fanni at cityhall...Coz both of them need to go orchard to search for formal wear lor....Den after tat arh, i and fanni hungry..So we look for food to eat...I whole day until tat time din eat lor...Only eat two fries and one cup of coke which i shud not drink lah....So very hungry lor...Den i bought one japanese pancake....Blueberry and cheese de...Its so nice lah....Two donut-one seafood and one potato de....And one double cheese burger to eat....Haha...i ate so much rite...Den yee woen keep saying me....hehe...But i am too hungry le lah....Or maybe i am abit sad as well bah....Den after tat we wait for yee woen another friend- Eileen to come lor....Den walk awhile more den we proceed to the MRT station le....But fanni go meet her friends den only left with me, yee woen and eileen lor....Den we go esplanade book place first well waiting for lucinda to come lor....Ystd de is a nice view lor....dne ystd i incharge of taking video and yee woen incharge of taking photo....haha....Ystd de firwork really really nice lor....Yupp....Den after tat arh, we walk to PS there lor...Eileen took MRT home while me, lulu and yee woen waited for 65 lor....Den we drop at lulu there den change bus number 8 home.....Den at first reach home wan use comp de...But kor kor using den i wait until i very tired so i went to slp lor....Yupp....Tats all lor....
confessed @ 11:22 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
My drawing...I name it "Alone"
My drawing..Named - "Liu Xing"/"Shooting Star"..
Hmm…The time is 7.38am of 110806….Still on bus 969…Juz left Tampines interchange nia…OMG~ I am late again…LoLz….Yesterday nite I din online…So nv blog at this blog….So now on bus I shell blog lor….Hmm….Yesterday consider whole day feeling very sad bah…Yar lor….I really dunno why whenever I dun haf stead or felt alone arh, I will keep thinking of 060206 lor…Haiz…Anyway, yesterday as I sae arh, I in class very sad lor….Den only do powerpoint slide….Den oso understand abit on the VB code lah…I really hate VB lesson a lot lor….Coz I dun understand at all….Den din really tok much a time bah…Thou’ I still got smile all that lah…But seriously hor, in my heart it is so pain lor…I dunno y oso….Den got one friend or shud I sae someone who I like was sad lah.. So I get even more sad lor….Yar lor…But gud tat tis person is better now lor…
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Hmm….yesterday sort of cry in class again lor…Hmm…Including yesterday arh, I once again cry for continuous 3 days le…Yar lor…Since Tuesday 080806…Or shud I sae 090806 leh?? Coz its ard 2am or 3am plus when I cry…..Yar lor….Juz feeling so sad lor…I oso hope to haf someone beside be…Someone who is more than a friend…Someone who I love…But too bad there isn’t any….But luckily I still got my friends ard….Yar lor…Yesterday whole day being thinking whether I shud go visit tat 060206 in hospital or shud I go for my workshop..In the end, auntie sms me asking me whether I got go anot…Den tats was when I decided to go bah..But I keep asking my friends shud I go anot lor…Den all of them sae same thing…As a friend I shud go…Juz follow my heart…. .
So in the end, Xian Hao accompany me go lor…At first I dun wan de…Coz very troublesome for Xian Hao lor…Coz he got to meet his special someone at 8pm at woodlands mah..So if he accompany me to KK den he still need to rush back to woodlands…So I give so much excuse lor..I even lie….But hor, still can’t manage to bluff him and shi yun they all lor…So in the end Xian Hao still accompany me there lor…So me and Xian Hao took bus 960 there lor…On bus toking so much thingy..Let Xian Hao noe even more thingy abt me de…. So I can conclude smth…If euu ppl wan to noe more abt me arh, juz go out with me individually..Euu sure will noe more de…LoLz….Den reach KK le I go toilet first lor…Coz urgent lah..Yar lor…Den after tat I called auntie and see whether she reach already not…Den me and Xian Hao went up lor… Den Xian hao accompany into the ward…Saw 060206 and the stead…Yupp… Den me and xian hao seat down lor with uncle and auntie…Den auntie give me apple…hehe…She still remember I love apple…SO nice of her…Den after awhile Xian Hao need to go off..SO I pei him go out lor…Auntie walk us out as well…And she keep asking me go eat but I not hungry arh…But in the end she still push $15 to me…Den I dun wan accept de…But she use her method again….SO no choice lor…
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Den I accompany Xian Hao go ATM den walk to the bus stop lor…Wait for his bus come le den I go back to the ward lor…Den me, auntie and uncle keep chatting…Uncle sae I ke ai lor….Haha…and I think after asking my name arh, where I stay all that arh, he noe he scolded me b4…And now he sae I guai…Coz auntie keep saying I gud boi mah…Thankz auntie and uncle for praising me…Thru’out hor, I toking to auntie,uncle and the three younger brother more…Din really tok much to 060206…XianHao noes….Den I like very hyper..And I noe wad in xian hao’s mind lor…So I tell him I am okie…Not acting abnormal…But hor, I think I got abit bah…Yupp…Den after that at abt 8 arh, auntie and uncle gtg le…Den uncle sae wan send me home and I juz sae “orh”…I can’t believe actually I sae ‘Orh’ lor…I usually will sae dun need de…Ystd maybe I really not myself bah….Den auntie and uncle send me to serangoon interchange lor…On the car auntie and uncle got chat chat with me oso lah..Yar lor…Den board bus at 8.59pm..Den reach home at abt 10 lor…
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Den after bathe and use phone awhile arh, I felt hungry so I went down to buy food to eat….Den eat le I sms awhile den go slp le lor…Coz very tired….Hehe….Eat le slp..OMG~ I going to be fat again….Fat le plus fat equal fatter…=( Anyway now felt better le lah..So ppl dun wry kz…Juz tat I very tired now….yar lor….The time now is 8.07am…Reach yishun le…Shell end here…Getting long enuff….LoLz…..
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Messages...
To: Yee Woen
Sry that recently can't entertain euu wor....Coz i myself oso dunno wad my mood is...LoLz....It being swinging damn fast.....Yupp....So really sry yar....
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To: Xian Hao
Thankz for accompany me to KK yesterday...Thou' i keep on saying dun wan lah....But still thankz for insisting on accompany me kz... Sry tat i make use of you wor....Really a big thank euu bro....=)
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To: Shi yun
Thankz for not hiding my thingy from Xian Hao....I noe euu care ya...And i really appreciated....Yar lor...I noe euu scare i smth will happen so euu tell Xian hao that i not going home..I understand ur hao yi lor....=)
confessed @ 8:58 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Hmm..the time is 5.09pm...Juz finish chatting with yee woen abt the "anon" in my tag board....Tat person is really crazy lor....I in poly now lor...Sae wad i in ITE stare at the gf or wadsoever...Y so many crazy ppl de??
Hmm...Yesterday nite i slept at 3 am plus plus plus...Den woke up at 8 plus....den slp again all the way till 11 plus...Den watch tv awhile den bathe den go downstairs eat lor....Yuppp...Feeling so angry and sad now lor....Haiz....Anyway, yesterday nite while walking home from tampines interchange at 1 plus arh, saw something which like freak me out lor..... While walking pass one HDB flat rite, saw one old early holding one Singapore flag those children play de lah....Den infront of the din for chinese to burn the dunno wad paper de....in chinese is call "Jin Zi"...Den hor, i tot she burning the "jin Zi" mah...But i look closely hor, its not lor....She is burning something like newspaper de....Den a big stack lor....Den i keep looking at her...And her nxt move freak me out....She turn and look at me and keep smiling at me....OMG....Middle of the nite holding one Singapore flag burning newspaper?? Arh~!!!Scary...Somemore hor, she put her hand into the bin lor and the fire is like so big lor....No one can tahan de lor...But she put in for quite long den take out lor....den the street got no ppl all tat...So quiet...Scary lor....So i quicken my pace lor....Thou' i am really like so so so tired....
Hmm...Someone is admitted to hospital and the mum sms me and tell me... It happended ystd lah...And i dunno if i shud go visit tat person not lor...I dun feel like seeing tis person again....But bcoz of auntie i think i need to go....Wad shud i do leh?? i oso dunno...
confessed @ 4:52 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
hmm...The time now is 7.50pm....Hmm..Juz had my shower...I am so tire lor.....Hmm....Thats y i came home le i din bathe..Hehe....I watch TV, den nearly fall aslp when aiai msg me....Den after tat eat dinner...Den do my RJ....Den bathe....Den now online blog blog all that lor....hehe.... Hmm...Today in class as i sae arh, smth wrong wrong de...happy happy tears keep flooding in my eyes...but i dunno wad happen to me..Maybe too tired??
Hmm...Anyway, after school walk to interchange with Xian Hao and Lois....Den we talk talk talk lor...LoLz.....Den after that arh, we three go bread talk buy bread eat..Coz very hungry.....Den after that all of us walk different way lor....hehe...I go wait for 168 home..Xian Hao took MRT..Lois i dunno....lolz....Yupp....Den on bus i listen to my MP3 lor....Den half way thru' i use my lappy to play game lor...Hehe....Hmm...Whole day missing aiai....Hehe...Aiai shud be happy to see this lor....haha...
Today in class we are jio-ing ppl to join Project Superstar 2...All of us wanting to gain the experience only lor...Not wanting to win or wadever lah...But of coz if get in hor, its a gud thingy lor....But if get in thats mean muz sacrifice many thingy lor.....Hehe....But if euu interested euu wun mind de lor....lolz....
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Messages...
To: Yee Woen...
Hehe.....Thankz my number one fan for giveing me the nick "Ke Ai Jiao Zhu"....haha....but i am not lah..Photo cute nia...lolz....Real person like shit...hehe....hmm....ur birthday coming le wor.....my holiday oso coming le....But is after ur b'day....hehe...Hmm....jia you for ur exam kz....hehe....Take care ya....=)
To: Aiai...
I miss euu lots....=)
To: Xian hao, Shu Hua, Shi Yun...
Euu all today sae i long time nv leave euu all msg le..So here i am to leave one for euu all le....haha....Hope euu all stay happy always...And cannot forget me when split class kz???hehe.... so i now write le lor...dun sae i nv kz??hehe...=)
confessed @ 7:52 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Hmm..The time now is 11.11am..Juz finish blogging my another blog...Den now here to blog at this blog le.... Hmm...Think nth much to blog today oso lah..Most prob today will be another day of staying at home lor....Haha....So i will rite my feelings plus msges for ppl lor...
Feelings(050806 till 060806)....
Super Impt friends:
- Y**W***, M**H****, L****D*
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Very Impt Friends:
-S**H**, X***H**, S**Y**, L****N*, S**R**, J*S***
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Special Friends:
-M*C****, D*N***, V****T***, J**E**, A*A*, Z**R**, A*L*, J*V**, Y*G*, D**M***, J*S**
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Impt Friends:
-All My Friends....
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Love:
- No one~!!
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Like:
-D**M***, Y*G*, V****T***
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Crush:
-J*S**
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Thinking:
-J*S**, V****T***, D**M***
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To: Y**W***
Hehe..Actually arh, euu are pretty wad...remember got model AGENCIES find euu?? i emphasis on the word "agencies" coz its not "agency" lolz.....Hmm...Wad is "Ke Ai Jiao Zhu"?? LoLz....Anyway as i sae arh, my nick change to blur piggy quite long le....i no longer devil...hehe....Xiang tong le... Anyway, ur 'day coming leh....How euu going to celebrate leh?? This time euu wan plan plan urslef??haha...Like how i usually did.....hehe....
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To:J*S**
Hmmm....Was abit sad when euu lie to me ystd lor...Yupp...Hmm...hopefully euu wun lie to me again bah....Euu shud noe wad i saying about rite??Yar lor....Anyway next time dun hang out so late le lah..If can stay home and haf more rest....Dun wan to see euu quarrel or make ur family angry kz??
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To: W16Q
Ppl...We are really separating class soon...Can we juz like enjoy our last few weeks or days together?? Can we juz haf peace in class?? Those things that is outside class de thingy can euu ppl settle outside and dun bring it to class??? It really affect the whole class le lor....So plz wan settle go out of sch to settle...Euu guys are old enuff to think le bah....Yar lor...Those ppl tat dun enjoy our class rite, euu ppl dun haf to come to sch le lor...last two weeks euu all can break if euu all nv absent b4...
confessed @ 11:11 AM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
The time now is 10.30am..Juz finish blogging in my another blog...Den here i am blogging at this blog....As mention in my the other blog yesterday happen to to walk down from PS to cityhall area..The memories there is something i can't forget....That person name still linger in my mind..That person voice...That person smile....Everything about that person....But at least at that road down to cityhall i still not that sad...But when i am at esplanade, my heart keep calling out for that person name...I keep thinking of that person....Heart is sort of bleeding at that moment once again.... Den at Raffles city arh, i look ard and ard again for the memories i had with this person after break up...Yupp....And walking pass another shop i think of another person....All these memories are still so clear....But what my heart keep doing at that moment where i am at esplanade and RafflesCity is to all of that person name...Yupp....But maybe i juz got to face the fact that that person will nv be back to me again...And i oso got to face the fact that this person had changed...In addition, i dun wan to get hurt by tis person ever again.....Hmm...but this walk arh oso let me realise something.... I haf already let go quite alot le....Yupp...I din get as sad as i can be in the past...Yupp...And i can totally dun reply that person de msg oso le....Tho' its juz a gud nite msg from that person....In the past, even a gud nite msg, i for sure will reply de....But now i can tahan myself by not replying lor...Yupp...Does this mean that i really let go le leh?? Maybe bah....But i think this is a great improvement for myself bah...Yar lor....Anyway, thankz J*s** for ur concern kz?? Hope tat i sad sad and tummy pain pain din affect euu having fun with ur friends at dunno where lor....Yupp.... ANyway, after knowing where euu actually go rite, i was rather disappointed lor...Yupp....Dun really like tat euu go tis places....But its up to euu oso lor....Yupp....-------------------------------------------------
Feelings (040806)...Love: No One~~~.Like: D**M***, Y*G*,V****T***.Crush: J*S**.Thinking: J*S**, Y*G*.Missing: V****T***, J*V**
confessed @ 10:34 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Hmm...the time now is 9.12pm...Juz finish doing my RJ....LoLz....Totally dunno wad to write so i juz write rubbish and submit lor....Yar lor.... Hmm...Juz now meeting start at abt 5pm...DEn at abt 6plus....Den walk to interchange with friends lor....DEn arh i took 969 home...On bus once again i play game lor...LoLz....DEn after tat i called jason and chat with him arh...But of coz i ask him call back lor....LoLz....Den after tat arh, he pei me chat chat until i reach home....Haha...Anyway, i walked home from interchange lah....LoLz....Den he pei me chat while i buy rice....Den till i reach home correct le lah....LoLz....
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Hmm...Juz now auntie called me to ask how am i...Once again arh, i wan to tell auntie that i really appreciate her care...Xie Xie auntie..I feeling better le...No more flu...But got diarroea...LoLz....But i will take gud care of myself de....Hehe....This is a promise to auntie and all my friends....Hmm....Today in school take photo....Den play game...I nv do work at all lor...So sry to Hua jie once again....LoLz....Hmm....Now eyes start to itch again....Recently eyes keep itching... Sianz....Hmm...Anyway, i did some thinking about my feelings le...And later i will be writing it in tis blog lor....And oso arh,will write a few msg bah....LoLz....
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Today really nth much happen lor...So dunno wad to blog le..LoLz.... So i shud write down my feelings le lor.....Today will put in more.....LoLz.....
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Feelings (030806)
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Super Impt Friends:
~ Y**W***, M**h****, L****D*
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Very Impt Friends:
~ X***H**, S**H**, S**Y**, L****N*, J***P*, S***O*
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Impt Friends:
~All My Friends~!!!
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Special Friends:
~ E**S**, Z**R**, A*L*, J**E**, J*V**, D**M***, J*S**, V****T***, Y*G*
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Love:
~ No PpL~!!
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Like:
~ Y*G*, D**M***, V****T***
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Crush:
~ J*S**
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Messages....
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To: YeeWoen
Hey hey...Really need to thankz ur friends and my "number one fan" eileen wor...Thankz them for saying me cute...Thou' i am not lah....LoLz....But my class de ppl really sae euu are chio bu lor...haha....Anyway, i did take care of myself lor...Juz tat i fall sick only..But my flu recover le...Juz tat recently having diarroea....Yar lor...Euu muz take car of urself oso kz?? =)
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To: W16Q
Hmmm...very soon our class is separating le..Sad Sad..Really great having some of euu as friends...Last three weeks together le..Hope our class nth will happen kz?? Yar lor....Den arh, muz really enjoy our last few weeks together kz?? hehe....Take care to all...Especially my dearies Shu Hua, Lareina, Shi Yun and Xian Hao....LoLz.....
confessed @ 9:12 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Hmm..the time now is 8.31pm...Juz finish posting my de other blog so here to blog the other one lor....Hehe....Hmm tok about ystd nite first bah....I cry myself to slp again....Hmm....euu all shud be asking me y rite?? Hmm..Coz i am thinking of a few person lor...Yupp...J*v** and the 6 people that i like....I got to draw lines with the 6 ppl le....Coz arh, i cannot like them....Some got stead..Soem got ppl they like...Some wun like me....Some i like le other ppl will angry...So yup, i got to draw my own lines so i wun like them le...Like people is so difficult lor... Yar lor...Den i cry out at 10pm lor....LoLz....But i now feel better le lah..ANyway, tis morning when on 969 from tampines to woodlands rite, thru' the ride hor, i on my Mp3 and look out of the window....The whole journey i look out...Den i nv realise the sceanary is so nice lor....Or izzit bcoz my sad mood plus the sad song make me sad leh?? But it really nice, got sunrise to see..Got water...Got trees..Got ppl...Got building...Got cars...So many things....Really so nice..Not sad at all when i look out...Really so nice~!!!!! Maybe i shud do it more often...Hehe...Nice feeling....Hmm...Shud i hide up all my feelings or shud i still show it out leh...I really dunno leh....Haiz....Wad shud i do leh?? Anyone can help me?? I really dunno....But dun wry, i not sad in sch leh..I only sad sad at home....LoLz.....K lah..Shel stop here....Today i will not put my feelings le....
confessed @ 8:36 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Hmm..The time now is 2.31pm...Team 3 is presenting..Nxt will be my team le...But i dun feel like toking now lor....Really really very angry....Angry until i feel like crying out liao...Arh~!!!! I going to bang wall soon....Continuous two days in a week i muz take all this things which happen today lor....Haiz.... Wad the hell is this team lor..Hated..Angry is all i can sae..... Y i am angry?? Its Simple....!!! The group for today consist 4 ppl lah..including me....Den tis person A rite, always do nth lor....She really nv do much...Ask her find tis she sae can't find....But when i find rite, i can find lor....She only keep msn-ing and blogging and wad so ever lah....Really angry.....Den the nxt person B, he got contribute to the team so i nth to sae...Coz he a person who is okie in the team....Last person which is C....This guy here when come to wad to include in our slide rite, is really a big trouble lor...Coz he always go haywire lah....Den Tis wan dun wan that wan dun wan....Juz bcoz limited information is found den bcoz they manage to get 6P so they think that 6P dun haf so dun put...But they nv go and think abt other factors lor....Pissed.....Arh~!!!!!
Hmm...Tml will haf A and C in my team again lor....Tell euu all bah, the same thing will happen again de lor....Sure again very wad de....Relaly pissed....Anyone can help me??? PLZ HELP ME~!!!!!! B4 i really lose my temper lor....TOday i can choose not to stay in school de coz i am having diarroea....Really gone lor...Haiz....Regret staying in sch for the whole lesson....When i still can affort to miss one more lesson for tis module lor..... Really really regretted.... Shud haf choose to go home...Anyway, at first recover 1/2 half thru' my sick le....But hor, now i suddenly feel sick again....Its time for me to rest again le...I need rest lor....Hated stress....Today will be back writting msg for ppl le....To: Y*G*Sry tat i dunno y that i keep making euu angry and sad....Even thou' i try my best to make euu happy le....But i dunno y i always still make ueu angry and sad lah....Really so sry...I noe euu got stead le so i will control myself de lah....YAr lor....Anyway, ur smile really very cute~!!!!To: D**M***Hmmm....Euu today went for ur Eyes Checkup hopefully everything is okie lah....Yar lor...Thankz for reminding me tat i am a nice person...I hope i can always de as well....Yupp.... Thankz for listening to my trash when i sms euu....Whether euu really a bad person, tats for me to find out....To: X*** H**Hmm...Recently in class dunno wad happen to euu lah...Yar lor...Hmm, thou' still saw the smile on ur face arh, but i dunno y keep feeling that the smile is no longer from deep in the heart de liao....In another word, its not true smile lor...Hope tat i can see the truw smile from euu again wor...hehe....To: Y** W***Hmm...So long nv see le....Ur exam shud be near by le bah...If i not wrong lah....My holiday is coming le....Den recently oso sort of busy den sick so nv contact euu....But dun wry kz, when euu holiday i will fan euu de...LoLZ....Take Care kz??To: L****D*HMm..Thankz for ur testimonial wor...Yupp...SInce Lisa b'dae till now nv see le lor....Hmm...When my holiday come i will find euu de...Recently still quite busy with my school thingy lor...Yupp....Sry arh....See euu soon wor...=)-------------------
Feelings (010806)...Love: NO ONE~!!!!Like: A,V,Z,Y,D,ECrush: JMissing: D,YThinking: Z,V,A
confessed @ 2:31 PM