Friday, September 01, 2006
Finally its time to give up le...Yupp....Thankz DEARIE for doing me tat favour...Yupp...At one go sad sad better than going it thru' many days....Yupp...But i think tis sadness going to last for a few days bah..Or even mths bah.....Yar lor...Hmm....Nvm bah...i am used to it le.....Hmm...dunno y at tis moment all the foolish tots is back...Yup....I dunno le bah...yar lor....I shudn' haf fall in love with ppl anymore....Ystd the "Wo Jio Jin SanShun" really suit me alot lor....The part whereby SanShun was drinking alcohol and she saw her Dad who is dead...Den she tell her father how come after going thru' so much of hurts and whatsoever, why will she fall for another person again....Yupp....I think tis quite suit me bah...After 6 failure and some cheating, y do i still fall for ppl leh?? and make myself back to misery?? Ain't i stupid? I dunno bah..."Wo Jiao Jin SanShun" is really a nice show....Funny but some part touching...Ystd tat part i cry out while i link her incident to mine.....Yupp....
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At tis moment, i am chatting with shu hua online, and i crying now lah...Yupp....Juz now Aunite a.k.a "Mummy" called me coz i ask her she got any job to recommend now coz i am out of job all tat....Den when she call me, her first sentence is "Er zi, wei shen me ni na me ke lian" upon hearing tis, my tears drop again....And she hear it....Den she ask me dun cry....Den she sae "sayang me one million time" Tis sentence how long haf it being last use on me?? Or it nv ever did lor....Yupp...Really thankz "Mummy" for telling me all tis....Yupp....
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Practicing songs for Projectsuperstar now....SOng already selected...It will be "An Jing" and "Yi Shi de Mei Hao"...Which is for back up i not sur yet....Muz see which i can sing better with emotion all tat....Thou' tis two i sing for my ex b4 arh....But i can more relate to the song "Yi Shi De Mei Hao" Tat song i can sing with emo lor....Tis song i can sing until cry any moment...But "AnJing" i only tat time sing den i cry out bah...yupp.....Sunday is the audition le...Hope i can get in to second audition bah....I fnot, oso nvm....Experience is the thing i wan....
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.To: Auntie a.k.a "Mummy"
Thankz for ur concern and care for me....I really appreciate it alot alot alot....Yupp....Wad eu told me juz now really touched me....Sry tat i cry out while euu tok to me...Its bcoz of the first sentence euu sae bah...Yar..."Er Zi, Ni Wei Shen Me Na Me Ke Lian?" den "Mummy", thankz for saying tat euu sayang me when i crying....There's really no words for me to use to describe how much i appreciate ur care and concern...Xie xie "Mummy".....
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To: My Dearest a.k.a Z***
Hmm...Sry tat i push everything to euu now...Yupp...i dunno bah...Juz really leh...Recently i really really really siao le...Losing all my control over myself le....Yupp....Dearest, i wish euu all the best kz?? Take care...Most impt of all is euu stay happy can le....Yupp.....Sry for all the thing tat i haf caused.....Take care....
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To: My Dearie a.k.a N***
Hmm....as mention above, thankz for doing me tat favour....Thankz for saying tat we are impossible and euu nv like me or love me....If euu haf sae tat from the start it will be even better....Hmm...I wun influence euu on who euu shud choose le bah...Yar lor....Wadever izzit, if in the end euu get hurt or wad yar, jzu treat it as another lesson learn bah....yar lor....Be happy with any of the decision euu make kz?? Take Care...Hope euu clear ur confusion soon...
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To: Oyster a.k.a Xian Hao
Hmm....Y i nv tell euu wad happen to me recently rite, the answer can be found from my the other blog lah...Yupp...Hmmm....Reguarding y ystd de msg all so short is bcoz i no mood to blog oso....Hmm...Hope euu all are doing fine ya....Take care kz?? Even i do foolish thing arh, i am sure euu will still see my face when sch reopen....
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To: Hua-er a.k.a Shu Hua
Hmmm....Thankz for giving me tips on where i shud start singing the song from....And thankz for asking how am i all tat lah...Thou' i only until now den tell euu abit arh, but still thankz for viewing my blog and find out wadever tat haf happened to me...Yupp....Thankz leh...Take care kz?? see euu soon.....
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To: Nai Ma a.k.a Yee Woen
Hmm...I dun care lor....When euu toking to me rite, euu cannot think of other guys or gals...And cannot tok to them as well....Euu only can tok to me and listen to me....WO bu guan...I am ur "Er Zi" so euu muz treat me gud gud....When i am ard euu muz give me ur fulliest attention.....Or else i bite euu....Bleahz....Anyway, take care ya...Wheather recently not gud....
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To: 060206 a.k.a T***
Hmm...i noe tat euu are blaming me for everything...But as wad i haf told keith its juz all ur misunderstanding...I am not taking any revenge on euu...And if euu think tat i am, den be it bah...If i wan to take revenge on euu arh, muz i make myself until so sad?? Taking revenge and making myself in misery izzit worth it? euu think carefully lor....I wun make revenge and let myself sad de lor...Coz i find it not worth it....Taking revenge in the end shud be happy not sad de....Yar....Anyway, if euu insist tat everyhing is still my fault, den i sae sry bah..YAr....MAybe its no use, but i dunno bah....I dun even noe wad i do wrong tat euu blame me for everything....Take care....And i am not hyprocrite...The care i show euu is all from the btm of my heart de.....yupp....